Trying to find myself again.

Menuju end-of-May.

Hopefully, I’ll get the job offer that I’ve been waiting for in the nearest time possible.

That’s my biggest wish right now.
Doa yang aku selalu titipkan sejak akhir-akhir ini usai tiap solat aku.

To escape from the banking industry.

Looking at it now, I wonder why most people say working in a bank is their dream job. Mungkin sebab bonus ?  Dulu mungkin aku salah seorang daripada mereka. Tapi selepas 3 tahun++, apa yang aku boleh conclude is… this kind of job doesn’t suit me for the long run anymore. It’s no longer worth sacrificing my mental health for it.

I don’t know what other job roles are like. But for me, from an IT Application Backend Support point of view  the role itself is actually okay. But you really have to be mentally strong, especially when you’re supporting the card system.

And with that, aku rasa aku tak cukup kuat untuk teruskan perjalanan mencari rezeki di sini.

I would not say it’s a nightmare.
Because how could I survive for 3 years++ if it was one?This experience is still a lesson learned. Banyak mengajar aku benda baru.

Orang mungkin nampak macam “wow, kerja bank.” But they never really know what you have to deal with every single day.

This is still a journey that I’ll always appreciate, walaupun tak semuanya indah.

The thing I appreciate the most  and the thing I’ll miss the most is the teamwork. Yang ini paling sayang.

My team was always there whenever I needed them. They were always just one call away, tak kira tengah malam, weekend, ataupun public holiday sentiasa ada. Tak permah berkira.