Wednesday, March 18, 2026

Once a dream

Antara doa yang dalam diam Allah kabulkan.

Pernah terdetik nak kerja at this bank just because i think it is a big bank , kalau pergi mana2 kedai mostly guna this bank terminal. Somehow, it is just a dream.

But the way Allah kabulkan apa yang terlintas yg dulu aku impikan , it amaze me.

Jalan nya tak smooth but it still get me to the job yg aku pernah dream of.

Took a career break , jobless for a few months until im ready to ge back to work baru start apply. Failed interview with Aeon, then saw this job ad which suit me perfectly. Applied and get an interview and accepted. The onboard journey is smooth like Allah clearly planned it out for me .Someone resigned and I took over his job. The timing is amazing.

3 years ++ passed and i learn a lot. I'm doing good , never once failed to get bonus and increment. Get promoted. Thankful enough.

Along the way, the environment becomes more toxic. It's not the team but the bosses. Even my team lead . And i totally hate it when i have to work with this kind of environment. It doesn't excites me anymore. Somehow rasa macam kena treat like a robot. He want now, you must deliver now, lantak kau busy dengan benda lain ke apa .

But looking at it, I don't think I want to spend my entire life doing this job. Or perhaps working at banks doesn't suit me.It keeps me under pressure most of the time. And I hate it, because I fail to focus when there's so many things come at me and it broke me. To be on standby on some weekends/ public holidays is annoying. I was supposed to rest but who would know there will be some issues coming up. Plus it's critical system. You can't afford any downtime. And I hate surprise. Even I can still ask for my teammate's help but still i hate this kind of work. Able to stay here for 3 years plus is a blessing.

Now I think I've had enough. I need to plan for a better future. Less hectic job demi mental health. Mungkin patut cuba another industry , because all this while masih stuck with bank . Maybe it's not the job role that traumatised me, its the industry and the system. Our team is taking care of card system , imagine if there's issue with the system ? It directs impact to customer. Terminal cannot accept payment, cardholder unable to perform txn etc. That's why we cannot afford any mistakes , since the consequences would be huge. Even the bank apps itself , example you want to check your recent txn . The other system will come to our system to get the info and any slow response even its 2 seconds will be flag out. Imagine that .

To another role - another bank OR To another industry - same role (at least tak chaotic macam bank )

Moga Allah mudahkan transisi yang ini.

Sunday, March 2, 2025

Ramadhan.

First Ramadhan tahun lepas , sibuk dengan kerja hal duniawi. When everyone is getting ready for Tarawikh, i was doing my work , sitting in front of the notebook. Haih.


2025.

I am thankful enough for Ramadhan this year.

First Ramadhan yang sekurang² nya tenang tanpa gangguan kerja.

Moga kekal tenang sampai penghujung Ramadhan without being distracted dengan hal² kerja di luar waktu kerja ❤️

Tuesday, July 16, 2024

Happy Birthday Dear Self.

Dear Shaz.

Things might not be the way you want it to be this year, but just so you know Allah has way better plan for you.

Looking back at years that has passed, you've always wish for a job where you can feel belong. Now, you got what you wish for. You totally deserve it.

People around you keep asking about your jodoh. But you got no answer for that. Just be patient, Allah knows when is the right timing and who's the best for you.

There might be times that dealing with people is too much for you. It's ok to let it out..it's ok to cry.. crying doesn't mean you're weak.

Sometimes you're so hard on yourself, please don't.. everything takes time, so please be gentle with yourself.

I wish you nothing but the all the best things that life has to offer.

Moga hari² mendatang akan baik² saja.

Moga bonus nanti dapat 3 bulan gaji 😂

Moga gaji naik banyak sikit next year.

Moga juga dipertemukan dengan jodoh yang terbaik.

Happy Birthday dear self ❤️ 





Friday, April 26, 2024

...

If people around me wondering about my jodoh.

Well, just so you know it's not only you

Because me myself curious too 😂

And yet it's never in my priority list. 

Sunday, March 31, 2024

Random #1

Everyone move on with life. 

And I truly understand that.