It takes two to tango .

At the end of the day, perempuan yang akan tersakiti.  Dan pada akhirnya juga,  strong is the only option they have.

Betapa mudahnya menjadi lelaki, katanya cinta tapi masih ada yang lain. Haih,  murahnya cinta seorang lelaki dayus .

It's beyond logic. Sebab akal yang waras tak akan sanggup melakukan hal sebegitu.

I just couldn't understand bagaimana wujudnya perempuan yang sanggup menyakiti perempuan lain. ? Put yourself in her shoes , then fikir .. if someone did the same thing to you , kau mampu ke untuk hadap ? Tapi itulah, aku assume perempuan² spesis ini tak punya akal yang waras. Bodoh. 

I just couldn't understand bagaimana tega nya seorang perempuan sanggup menghancurkan sebuah keluarga yang bahagia demi kebahagiannya sendiri ? The audacity ? Again , mungkin perempuan² spesis ini hidup nya tak pernah bahagia hinggakan sanggup merampas kebahagiaan orang lain. Kejam. Psycho.

I just couldn't understand why a married man can just simply love another woman when at the same time he keep saying he loves his wife ? Can someone just give me a simple excuse untuk justify that action, bcs I find NONE. 

Apakah semudah itu agaknya cinta boleh beralih arah ?

Terus lupa baik nya dia, hingga sanggup memilih yang lain, melukakan wanita yang sama² ada dalam jatuh bangun . 

Bukan kah itu namanya betrayal in marriage ?  I can never tolerate that.

Bergelar seorang perempuan, jagalah harga diri. If the man that you've  to deal with is a married man, just take a step back. Draw a line, put a gap. Same goes to men. 

It takes two to tango. Apa yang susah sangat .

Entahlah , membaca sahaja dah terasa sakitnya..apatah lagi wanita² yang dikhianati sang suami.

Simpati, walau yang melaluinya hanya lah orang asing yang tiada hubung kaitnya dengan aku.

But there are few things I learn from this issue 

1. Setia itu terlalu mahal. At one point, you will never know he/she will betray you. 

2. Manusia diuji for each words that they preach. Somehow they just know how to talk. They do not practice it in life.

3. Don't love someone too much because somehow it will hurt you.

4. Lelaki itu diuji saat dia punya segalanya.

5. Jangan terlalu berkongsi kebahagiaan di media sosial. Keep it some to yourself ❤️. Tak semua yang melihat akan tumpang bahagia dengan kebahagiaan kau. Akan ada yang iri contohnya itu la, perempuan² psycho 😂

Semoga kita tidak tegolong dalam kalangan manusia yang membina bahagia atas penderitaan manusia lain.

2023 Life update I guess ?

I almost forgot the existence of this blog.

Dah lama tak menulis terasa kekok. 

Reading back what I've wrote years back is just like bringing me back to those memories. Living at that moment. Terasa cepat betul masa berlalu.

Dari zaman belajar di Kubang Pasu till now 2023 , whoa what a journey. 

Those excited moment nak ambil result SPM.

The frustration I had nak kena belajar segala subject di PASUM.

Fasa2 yang membentuk seorang Shaz yang sekarang.

I notice there was one post that I wrote mentioned that I don't have the courage to drive even I've already own a car. Well, current Shaz is already a pro driver 😂 I can be a jerk on the road at times, I can even drive for a long journey. So the younger-Shaz should have no worries on her driving skill. *Pat-myself-on-the-back.

Career ? I would say stable. Masih dalam banking industry even selalu kata nak berambus ke Industry lain 🥲 I guess I got no choice , sampai pencen la aku rasa aku kena kerja kat bank nampak gayanya. Dan ya, masih stick dengan IT punya lane align with my degree. 

Relationship ? Haha reaching 30 dan yes masih berkepit bawah ketiak ibu 😂 Member majority dah kahwin, dah ada anak . Kita tumpang happy aje la. Besides, aku ada 2 anak saudara yang comel + handsome so as of now, I'll just pampered my 2 babies so I can be their favorite aunty 😉

Friends ? I guess I lost friends along the way and I have no hard feeling about it. I can even count with my own fingers how many friend that I still keep in touch 😂  what a life la Shaz. Tapi entahla, vibe dia dah lain. Tak sama. Tapi aku ingat je each people yang pernah wujud dalam hidup. Sebab aku jarang lupa manusia² yang pernah ada dalam setiap moment hidup aku even from school years till now walaupun kita mungkin hanya classmates yang jarang bertegur sapa 😂 tapi kalau tadika tu memang takde dah la dalam memori.

Lagi apa ? Itu je la kot ye tak. Life update yang tak berapa nak update sangat. Dulu berangan dah start kerja nak cepat kaya, eh laaa kerja since 2017 sampai sekarang tak kaya² hahahaha tapi tetap lah bersyukur for having a stable career yang tak affected by COVID-19 .

So yeah, moga semua nya yang baik² sahaja untuk aku untuk hari dan tahun² mendatang . 

#One - To share.

" Dalam setiap rezeki buat kita, terselit rezeki untuk yang lain"

I love this words. I think its a beauty reminder ❤. Dont you think so ?

Share what you got, you can always get more.

You can always share your rezeki with someone..family or even strangers. Be it in any kind of form,.money? Food? Or anything..as long as it can ease someone's life. It doesnt make your money any lesser.

Lets make this one as a habit.

Be kind to stranger. Be grateful for whatever you have now.

InsyaAllah. To a better life.

Flashbask of 2018

' So how 2018 treat you ? '

2018 give me one big shock news that till now it hit me real hard.

Perginya Mak Uda kembali kpd Pencipta. Unexpected. It has been months since she passed away. But i still miss her. I miss her jokes. I miss her cooking. I miss everything about her. But I know Allah loves her more.

AlFatihah. Moga arwah mak uda tenang di sana.

2018 also cross one of my wishlist.

To own a car. But too bad, i still have no courage to drive it on my own. Lets hope that 2019 be the year of the independent me.

That two is my biggest highlight in 2018. One that give a real big impact in my life which i lost someone that i love too much. And another one, a progress to the independent me with a new big commitment + liability.

Lets make 2019, a colourful year. To a better me. To more wishlist to be crossed. To a richer me. Hahahaha. To a new job with a higher salary. Hahahaha. And to every dream to come true. Lastly, to love my work at uob as much as i love myself 😂

" Grow through what you go through "

Having failed about two or three interview for my scholarship years ago make me hate going for any interview.

But you can't really run away from it as it is a must-thing you have to do if you don't wanna hold that jobless title anymore.

" Grow through what you go through "

As much as I learned how interview has disappoint me with the result. I also learn there is always a room for improvement.I rather think that I should blame myself for all the disappointment I have go through.

For not giving much efforf.

For not being a confident-shaz.

For that take-thing-easy characteristic in mine.

From all the failure you have gone through

You always have something to learn.

Just don't give up.

Make up for it.

And be a better version of you.

And from that

I learn to not giving too much hope to myself.
So that I will not be so upset knowing that I fail.

If it was written for you, then it will be yours.

In life you have to know how the disappointment taste
so that you will work harder than before