" Grow through what you go through "

Having failed about two or three interview for my scholarship years ago make me hate going for any interview.

But you can't really run away from it as it is a must-thing you have to do if you don't wanna hold that jobless title anymore.

" Grow through what you go through "

As much as I learned how interview has disappoint me with the result. I also learn there is always a room for improvement.I rather think that I should blame myself for all the disappointment I have go through.

For not giving much efforf.

For not being a confident-shaz.

For that take-thing-easy characteristic in mine.

From all the failure you have gone through

You always have something to learn.

Just don't give up.

Make up for it.

And be a better version of you.

And from that

I learn to not giving too much hope to myself.
So that I will not be so upset knowing that I fail.

If it was written for you, then it will be yours.

In life you have to know how the disappointment taste
so that you will work harder than before

is it ?

is it weird?

when you have grown up

you tend to keep everything in a privacy mode

is it right?

when you have grown up

you still prefer to be the same old you

while everyone is actually changing

is it normal?

when you've reached 20+ year

while people is worry about their 'jodoh'

You are still taking it easy

because you don't really think about it

is it true?

that people who look heartless

is actually a person who care the most about others

friend that turn to strangers

who is the one that should be blame for not making an effort 

to keep in touch?

is it wrong?

for having some ego inside you 

;

'The moment you're ready to give up is usually the moment right before the miracle happens'

hidup deal dengan codes nie kalau run2 jumpa error nie, memang boleh buat murung.

satisfaction tue takde.

cuba bila codes kau mampu run helok

tak ke rasa puas je balik tak payah fikir apa dalam kepala.

tapi ada masa, semalam kau run dia error

esoknya kau buat balik run benda sama eh2 smooth pulak jalan dia.

bijak pulak program nie fix error sendiri.

dah kenapa?

time tue mungkinlah kau bertuah.

kalau nak harap setiap kali error kau bertuah, harapanlah.

kau lupa satu.

ada suatu tika kau mahu sesuatu.

kau adukan pada  Dia

kau luahkan semua

sebab kau tahu..

kau tahu Dia tahu.

Dia rindu.

rindu rintihan kau sebagai hamba.

maka dihadirkan sesuatu agar kau ingat pada Dia.

agar kau tahu, kau masih ada tempat untuk kau luah semua yang terbuku.

Dia rindu,

kau doa.
kau mengadu pada Dia.
kau kata kau dah puas mencuba.
kau kata kau dah penat.
kau kata kau dah tak larat.
kau kata kau tak kuat.

tapi sayang, kau lupa satu.

Dia lebih tahu.

Dia tahu kau mampu.

Dia sayangkan kau. 

mana mungkin Dia hadirkan ujian yang tak mampu kau hadap.

kau terus berdoa.

 kau harap moga2 esok lusa kau dapat apa yang kau hajat

dan kau terus menanti.

tapi masih tak dapat apa yang diharap.

kau pendam rasa kecewa.

kau menangis luka.

kau lupa satu.
ya, kau terlalu kecew sebab kau lupa satu.
kau lupa.

Dia adalah sebaik2 perancang

Dia tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kau.

Dia tak berikan apa yang kau mahu.

sebab Dia tahu.
itu bukan yang terbaik buatmu

Allah sayang kau.
itu kau perlu tahu.

apa yang kau mahu itu belum tentu yang terbaik kau.

kau perlu ingat itu.

at this age, I reach to the point which I keep asking to myself.

" Your parents have raise you for years, but what did you give them as something in return? "