Monday, August 21, 2017

" Grow through what you go through "

Having failed about two or three interview for my scholarship years ago make me hate going for any interview.

But you can't really run away from it as it is a must-thing you have to do if you don't wanna hold that jobless title anymore.

" Grow through what you go through "

As much as I learned how interview has disappoint me with the result. I also learn there is always a room for improvement.I rather think that I should blame myself for all the disappointment I have go through.

For not giving much efforf.
For not being a confident-shaz.
For that take-thing-easy characteristic in mine.

From all the failure you have gone through
You always have something to learn.
Just don't give up.
Make up for it.
And be a better version of you.

And from that
I learn to not giving too much hope to myself.
So that I will not be so upset knowing that I fail.

If it was written for you, then it will always be yours.

And for all the upset story I got from all the interview I have go through before.
I thank Allah for that.
As now I'm already success getting a job related to my course after only my first interview.

To the another phase of life.
To the different working life.
To the real programming life.

You're really a grown up girl shaz 😇

Sunday, June 18, 2017

emotional post I guess

I always have this big dream I wish I can do to my family

to be a daughter who can ease the burden of my parent
to tell my dad 'you don't have to work anymore, just rest and do whatever you enjoy doing..I can take care of them '
to simply make them happy in any ways I could do

it just..I don't hit me sometimes

they are getting older
but still at this age I can't contribute much

that feeling.

thinking about how much that our parents have done for us
how much things they have give up just to give the best to us

mixed feeling.

Saturday, June 17, 2017

is it ?

is it weird?
when you have grown up
you tend to keep everything in a privacy mode

is it right?
when you have grown up
you still prefer to be the same old you
while everyone is actually changing

is it normal?
when you've reached 20+ year
while people is worry about their 'jodoh'
You are still taking it easy
because you don't really think about it

is it true?
that people who look heartless
is actually a person who care the most about others

friend that turn to strangers
who is the one that should be blame for not making an effort 
to keep in touch?

is it wrong?
for having some ego inside you